Thursday, December 17, 2009

We aren't like Rubber bands

When you were a kid and a rubber band found its way into your hand, the curiosity of how far the rubber band would go, usually had you stretching it, shooting it, marking the spot, and trying again over and over.
Well I feel like Ive been stretched too far, and am having a hard time finding my way back. Having a baby takes a toll on every woman, with every birth. This marks my third birthing experience and by far the longest time to snap back from it. What can I do to get back where I used to be, or will I ever get to that spot again? I sleep pretty early, am up several times a night with Hailey, and sleep in anywhere from 9 to 10am. Luckily my kids aren't in school yet, and my husband works from home, and also serves them breakfast, while I'm still catching Z's!
I haven't felt like doing anything around the house, except the things that need to be done.
Shhh...don't tell but Ive got laundry in the dryer, that I DON'T feel like folding... What is up with this?I used to be total OCD with everything. Such a shame....I haven't even decorated for Christmas, and don't plan to. Id like to jump through time to January 2nd, after all the festivities have past. Not because I don't want to celebrate the birth of Jesus, or being with family, but because I'm tired, just plain and simple, wore out. Ive put up a Pink Christmas tree in my daughters room,which she loves, didn't get around to putting up my sons, and finally wrapped 80% of presents, maybe Ill get to the rest before Christmas, hopefully. IDK.

Does it take time? How much time? Back, will I ever find it? That energy, the will, the strength, Ill take a dose of all three!

I'm going to take a nap, with my newborn...they say I should sleep when she does...

My post pregnancy appointment is Jan 5th...hopefully she has an answer!

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

Finding the Perfect One

10 years ago when making a purchase, we'd have to visit the many different stores to compare prices. Nowadays we sit, in the comfort of our homes, (in our Jammies) and do online searches.

Knowing I would be a nursing Mommy I wanted to pick up a Nursing cover, and began my search a couple months ago while at Target. Target is equipped with all sorts of baby gear and plenty of brands to choose from. I located only one Nursing cover. The cover was nice, all black, tiny pocket, secure neck Velcro, and a good price of $10 dollars. Although reasonably priced it was too small. Not wanting any accidental flashing's, Id like mine wider.
It would most likely get the job done but for $10 dollars I can probably run over to Joann's and buy fabric and try making one. Baby appointments are nearing as well as appointments for myself, so this is going to be very, very handy in the near future.

The online search pretty much showed me what I didn't want to spend on something like this. With shipping $35 +. Now my search will be a pattern, where can I find one of those? Or do I need one? Ah! Sewing for dummies, would come in handy... My search continues...

Sunday, December 13, 2009

My Story

When God designed the body of a woman he made it perfect! I only have one complaint, why is labor so intense! Lets go back in time so you get a better understanding of where I'm coming from.

36wks ago I was 5 wks preggers and thrilled to know a baby was on its way! My family even went out to a "Congratulations" type dinner (anything to go out to eat,LOL) Seemed we were headed in the right direction of completing our family of 5. We already have a son, and daughter, so a healthy baby and mommy was it on our Want list.

So as the weeks went on with no complications, I began thinking about labor and my preferred birthing method. From experience having had my son c-section, the pain, the recovery time and that scar, was not for me! My second was a VBAC, which seemed like an easier route to take, and the one I'd choose. I mentioned my decision to my midwife, and left my appt that day grinning from ear to ear! I'd gotten so much positive support I just knew it was a possibility NOW!

By the time my 37th week appt came, I left that day almost in tears. I had signed the line... Since having a prior C-section, they will not induce if I get to my due date and have not delivered. My heart sank I knew I'd just signed the line that caused my body so much pain, discomfort and a horrible scar. From this point I knew I needed to deliver her before my due date or else... So I searched the Internet for ways to bring on labor. I found so many ways people thought brought on labor they are almost too funny to repeat. Okay, Ill name a few just to amuse you!

Galloping (on a curb, so one foot on curb while other is on get the idea)
Spicy food (Heartburn, yikes definitely a no no)
Castor Oil (Nuts, never ever would purposely give myself the you know WHATS!!!!!!!!)
Acupuncture (More Pain? No...)
Long Walks (Nope)
Cohosh (Didn't try)
Evening Primrose Oil (Didn't try)

Just to name a few! Maybe one or more of these worked for you, these are only my opinions, and we all have opinions like we all have noses. So please don't get offended.

Onto the day of pain. Tuesday November 24th I woke up a little before 8 am, and felt what I thought were "real" labor pains. So I woke up my DH just to let him know I was going to sit and time them for about an hour. As I sat there in disbelief, my contractions were 5 mins apart on the dot and getting stronger and stronger. So at 9 I woke up my DH again, and told him to get ready, cause it was time. So being my cool and collective self, I decided to take a shower...bad bad idea! Now, I'm screaming every 3-4 mins, and can hardly stand in the shower cause of the pain. Knowing that this was very dangerous in the shower, I got out and dressed as fast as I could, and by now my contractions were a strong 3 mins apart. I'm dressed and now making my way out of my master bedroom down the hall to the stairs, when i cant go any longer. Down 4 stairs, I need to turn around and get on my knees I'm in so much pain. So I'm forced to go down the stairs on my knees. So when I finally make it to the car, my contractions have become even more painful (how much more painful can these suckers get??) and now at every 2 mins....

Luckily my lovely sister only lives a few streets away from me, we arrived within minutes to drop off my daughter and son. SCREAMING! There are 6 stop signs between my home and hers, at stop sign 3 I told my DH he needed to call an ambulance "NOW cause she was coming..."! 3 stop signs later he was on the phone with 911. My hospital is 45mins-1hour away from where we live, there was No Way on Gods green earth I would have made it. So I sat there in the passenger seat of our SUV, screaming in pain for what seemed like forever! Until I heard the ambulance siren, and by then I was screaming Louder, cause my contractions had now been one minute apart!

*And just to give a little credit where credit is due, my mom always told us to "Always wear clean panties, cause your a lady and you Never know what can happen to you!" Thank you MOMMY! Boy, was I pleased with myself for hopping in the shower and putting on some clean panties!!! Even though they cut them off as well as my super cute black and white maternity skirt I was wearing, at least they were clean!!!*

All this was going on my eyes are closed the whole time, I'm getting anxious, my hands are numb and I seriously think its the end, I'm dying...! Well not dying, but I sure did feel like I was!

So I pop my eyes open and there are about 8 strangers staring not at my eyes but, at "the baby area!" If you know me, I am a very quiet, very reserved, and a very private person. I don't dress in front of anyone, I don't talk about private issues with anyone other then my Dr and even then i feel embarrassed. I just don't do certain things, so this was "VERY Shocking!"

My eyes are closed, my DH in trying to calm me, my sister is trying to calm me and the medics are trying to get me on a stretcher to rush me to the ER. I'm in the ambulance, 10cm and my contractions are like 30 secs apart, water broke (poor ambulance, all over, let me tell you!) It takes the ambulance 8 mins to get me to the closest ER in my area. Once in the ER they rush me to another room, plop me on the bed, and I'm dying this whole time, screaming in pain, asking them to "hurry", and telling them "I NEED to push!"

I've heard so many horrible stories of woman having babies and pooping on the table, and let me tell you, It was NOT going to be me! So there I was 8 Nurses, my DH, and several people I didn't know what they were doing there. The Nurses must have poked my arms 8 times trying to give me an IV, and never could get a vein, "HELLO"! Ive now been laying on the bed for almost ten minutes dying screaming, on my side, cause they don't want me to push, my left arm all bloody, cause the Nurses couldn't find a vein, and were messy about it. And the wait, why were we waiting? I was dying, did they not hear? Well it was for the Doctor... cant do anything without him! He arrives and one minute later he tells me to push, I push, I feel burning (I tore,Ugh!), and shes out! One push brought my gorgeous daughter to her Mommy's arms at 11:58am Hailey Madison Paige was born.

By this time, I had my daughter in my arms, and forgot about the pain, even when the Dr stitched me! CRINGE! ouch! I give all the honor to God for sending me a healthy baby girl, and keeping me healthy too! The next day I went home, and began the journey of raising a newborn a 2 year old and a 4 year old! I couldn't do this without the help of my DH, who I love endlessly!!! Now that 18 days have pasted, its still hard for me to think about those several hours before the delivery of my daughter. The whole experience and the pain would be hard for anyone to forget.
Everyday with her has been a blessing! My 2 and 4 year old, cant get enough of her, cant kiss her enough, touch her hand enough, and just want to be involved with everything, getting diapers, wipes, clothes, baths, and can you imagine all the questions I get, tons! They are like sponges, and don't forget anything regarding Hailey. She is lucky to have them, which she will see as she gets older.

Thursday, November 26, 2009

A Day to be Thankful

Today I am so thankful. God has blessed me sooo very much...Two days ago I delivered a healthy baby girl, and am home today. My husband has been a God send to me these past few days, especially when the clock was ticking. He was busy making my meals, doing housework, and even massaging my feet! Thank you Hunny I love you bunches! Not to mention my 2 angels, my son Carter, has been my helper, asking for things to help with, while my daughter Kaitlyn has been my shadow, wanting to do everything I do. I love you both and thank God for you! I'm also so thankful to have supportive parents, and siblings. They encourage, support, and most importantly are dependable.

I'm also thankful for blogging! I love visiting y'all seeing whats new, learning so many new things and making new friends. Thank you all!

Today marks the birthday of two of my adorable nephews! Happy 5th Birthday Connor and Happy 2nd Birthday Matthew! God Bless you both!

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

Just in Time!

My beautiful new addition has arrived!
More later...I'm exhausted...

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

Due Date, TODAY!!!!!!!!!

Woke up today with contractions....

Will be timing for the next hour, to see if I should make a trip out to L&D...

Will be keeping you updated!!!!!!!

Monday, November 23, 2009

40 Whole Weeks

Tomorrow marks my due date. A whole 40 weeks carrying someone I can hardly wait to meet. Shes kicked, flipped, and used every bit of belly available to her!
So hows the sleeping you say? What sleep? Here and there, id say. Between the all night heart burn, every 20 minute peeing, and trying to toss and turn to get in a comfy position (which doesn't work,EVER) Id say i must have dozed off in there somewhere at least for a couple of minutes.
With my c-section date approaching in 7 days I am still pretty nervous that she wont make it in time and ill be rolled into the operating room! Ive had so much support in my choice to try for another VBAC, its awesome. I know the recovery time stinks with a c-section, and really never goes back to normal, must be why I feel so strongly about the VBAC.
No matter what route has to be taken when I enter that delievery room, I cant wait to meet my baby girl.

Oh yes! We have her name picked out too! So now we're only missing the beauty to go with it!

*Photo was taken of Me @29wks, with my other birds...

Friday, November 20, 2009

Only days to go!

39 weeks and 5 days. I've made it down to the wire.

My Dr emailed me back and per my request pushed my C-section back one week till Dec 1st. I'm a basket of mixed emotions, not sure if I'm happy about the delay, nervous that she wont get here in time, and a lil anxious for her arrival!

Ive got everything ready to go, bags packed, car seat in car and I'm stocked up on newborn diapers.

Ill keep you updated on my progress, or lack of...

As of this morning I am only 3 1/2cm, 50% effaced.

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

The last 6 days..

Lets see where should my story begin, I guess I should start at the beginning. 9 Months ago we were thrilled to discover we were pregnant with our 3rd child. What a beautiful surprise, and gift from God... I originally made up my mind to keep you updated on check ups, growing, all the good stuff that goes along with being pregnant. Then the "nesting phase" kicked in overdrive! I didn't sit down from about week 18 till about week 36. Today at 39 weeks I am still doing, moving, and waiting till my hubby's is off work to nag him a bit! LOL...

I have 6 days till my due date, and still cant believe Ive come so far! With my first I went to 37 wks, with my second 35 wks, and my 3rd I was hoping to have her delivered like 2 weeks ago! So much for positive thinking. Ive been having plenty of contractions, and even thought I was in Labor last Friday at 4am, then arrived at the hospital and 20 minutes later were gone!!!

Since having a previous C-section I cant be induced. So they've already scheduled my C-section day for Monday the 23rd. If you've ever had one you know about everything that comes along with it, plus recovery. I'm not looking forward to it, and getting very nervous and anxious and being cut again. So today I went in for a check up, and I am 2 1/2 cm, 50 %. This afternoon I decided to email my Dr. and let him know how I am feeling. I would like at least another week to give vbac a try. Ill keep you updated on his response. I know I can do this, Ive done it before!
Please keep me in your prayers!

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Fabulous Giveaway!

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Sunday, November 8, 2009

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

A Name isn't JUST a Name

All mothers must go through the endless lists of baby names until they find the perfect fit. At 31 weeks I still have not found it. I've gone from Googles most popular, to unique, to switching years all the way back to the 50's and nothing. Maybe I have not found it yet, or maybe I have and just don't know I have. i want something feminine, something with substance, something i can take a nickname out of, something girly and pretty! Is that too much to ask for? So Lord in front of all my fellow bloggers, I am asking for some help, guidance and direction. The perfect name is out there I just have to find it!

If you know of a baby girl name, which fits all of the above, please let me know... my time is running out!

The Note...

Today was an interesting day... This afternoon before dinner, my husband found a note on the door which was typed and written anonymous. Our neighbor, or whomever it is, has asked us to bring in our dogs, which have been barking too much at night, and are keeping them up.

I totally understand where they are coming from, although them barking is out of my control, and if it wasn't for the neighborhood cats running through our yard, we wouldn't have an issue, so since we are peace makers, and are compassionate with our neighbors who never wave, or even look in our direction as we pass them, we will be bringing our pooches in at night. We apologise for keeping you up at night, and for the nuisance both our 3lb dogs have been.

Bad, Bad, Bad...

I have been the worst blogger out there, I think! LOL I had planned to write so often, I cant believe that I let myself down!

Lets see, so much has gone on these past few months!

Today I am 31 weeks pregnant and would have liked to do weekly updates of my progress, but didn't. So today I will fill you in. So, I'm having a girl! Yippie! Still no name picked out. My due date is Nov 24th. She is breach as of last weeks ultrasound, and I'm praying and trusting God to do a miracle. With my previous 2, Ive had both C-section and natural births. I would much rather have a natural. I know God has his hand on my situation and he knows will take care of whatever situation comes my way...
So, I'm not going to promise, but I'm going to try to keep you updated as much as possible!!!

Sunday, August 23, 2009

My Little man is growing up!

Its so hard to believe that my son was born 4 years ago. He has grown up way too fast. He has the cutest little laugh, great personality and smile that will capture your heart. This year he loves Star Wars, Clone troopers and anything else that has to do with it. He enjoys playing with his sister, and his cousins Shawnie and Connor. He is so athletic and coordinated its amazing! I know he didnt get it from me. must have picked it up from his dad! He loves every sport, especially Golf, like his dad!
I love my son and cant believe time has flown by so fast!
Happy Birthday Big Boy!!!
I love you!

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

A Birthday Wish...

Star Wars Millennium Falcon

Today's blog is kinda different. I am asking everyone out there to do a mind search, closet search, or keep an eye out... My 4 year old has asked me to buy him a Star Wars Millennium Falcon which was released like 6 years ago, i think! They aren't sold in stores and have been retired for years. I have been asking around, and looking here and there at different stores with No luck.
If you happen to have one of these, please let me know, I would LOVE to purchase it from you, for my son. Please send me your price and a picture!!! Thank you sooo much, you would make his day!!!!!!

Friday, July 24, 2009

Morning Glory

Its such a beautiful time of the year. So many plants, vines and trees have bloomed in many different colors. My favorite vine of the season is my Pink Morning Glory. It has just taken over the trellis, and bloomed these gorgeous pink trumpets. The only question I have is, "Why do they only bloom in the morning?"

They are so beautiful I'd really love to enjoy them all day rather then just with breakfast.
Wouldn't you?

Life's Tragedy's

Since I've been pregnant I cry for just about everything. When I'm in a conversation and speak of something sad or even happy, when I watch cartoons with the kids like Lion King or love stories with good endings, or when I read something. Daily I visit Cindy at and came upon her post from this morning. I barely got through the headline and already my heartstrings were being yanked... Just to give you an idea of the story, a wife and mother of 6 daughters was taken, along with her 7 year old daughter to heaven, all too quick.

If you haven't visited Cindy's blog, please follow that link to get to the story.

Stories like these make you realize whats important in life, the things we live for and the things we love. Also shows us how fast life is, the little dash between year born, and year of death.

The Murray family is in my thoughts and Prayers

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

Any "Berts" out there???

What is the first thing you look at when you see someone? Lips, eyes, nose, ears, hair, it could be anyone of these things or something else... I see eyes. I can see a lot through your eyes like, happiness, pain, sadness, sleepiness, which is only a few of the many things I can see... But what I can't see past is a pair of bushy untamed brows, or in some cases uni brow! It's sad really to think that you could let yourself go so easy without maintaining, a part of your face that probably gets over looked daily. Without the fuzz, you can open up your eyes, and how people see you. Not only do they see you care about yourself, they see your face, without the shadows of unneeded hair. If you know anyone who needs a little help out there, let them know you are available to help them tame those bushy brows! I know I will!!!

It's a Girl!!!

We are thrilled to announce we are having a baby Girl! After many months of wondering, thinking, and taking bets, Girls win! We will be meeting her very soon, I am 20 weeks along, and the weeks are just blowing by. We still have not thought about names, so if you have any in mind you'd like to toss in, please don't hesitate! I will narrow several down as the weeks go by and update you with my choice!!!
Can't wait to meet my baby girl!

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

Meet Lexi, our newest addition!!!

Today I am welcoming Lexi into our family! She is only 4 months old, and weights 2lbs...
She has the sweetest personality, loves her belly rubbed, and she falls asleep always within minutes of holding her! She is tiny, but already has shown to be a great watch dog, fending off birds, and cats. Best of all she gets along with our other puppy Toby.
We are looking foward to many great years with her, as a part of our family!

Sunday, May 31, 2009

Happy 6th Anniversary !!!

Six years ago I married the Man I want to spend the rest of my life with! I have enjoyed every minute of everyday being your wife! Good and the bad, I love you more then you'd ever imagine! I cant wait to see what else God has in store for our future!

Thursday, April 30, 2009

Happy Birthday My Little Princess

Today is my sweet daughters 2nd Birthday! The years, have just gone by much too fast! I remember the day she was born at 35 weeks, she only weighted 5lbs 5oz! She was tiny, but gorgeous! All the nurses and doctors loved her! Now she is a chatter box, who love princesses, Dora & boots, anything pink, books, counting, her ABC's and tons more! She loves to play with her big brother, and adores her cousins! Time goes by so fast, its so wonderful that we have cameras to capture the beautiful moments of our lives!
Happy Birthday Princess, my God bless you all the days of your life!

Monday, April 27, 2009

Growing Pains!

We're pregnant!

Thrilled and happy to be parents all over again! We are praying for a healthy bundle of joy! My due date is Nov 24, 2009. Although I am hoping to go sooner! I haven't carried a baby past 37 weeks, so I'm guessing this one wont be over due either.

Suggestions anyone???

I'm sure we all have had this problem, well maybe not all of us, some of us! Let me explain!

Go back to 3 years ago, we were so excited to move into our new home, have new neighbors, new parks, new everything right? Wrong... Seems like when we got around to meet our neighbors, they were either on the way into their homes, or just too busy to smile and wave.

It's ridiculous! We finally met our immediate neighbor to the right which worked out great, but have yet to meet anyone else! Maybe I'm just not approachable? Who knows, but if your reading this and have a neighbor you have yet to meet, please at the least, smile and wave, maybe even run over for a quick chat!

I will try my hardest this summer to get to know some of my neighbors, and will keep you updated!

Our Weekend Outting!

Sure, the Saturday we pick to go to the Wild Animal Park was the Hottest day of the year! I can't began to tell you how many drinks we had to buy to beat the heat! By the end of the day the $12.95 +tax Souvenir cup with free refills, didn't look like a bad choice.

Even though we had the heatwave, I do have to admit, we had a wonderful day and so did the kids! We did have some complaining here and there about the walking portion of it, and about the 50 million birds we seen and hardly no animals and where were all the tigers, and why was there so many people and on and on...

Just want to share a couple family pictures of our adventure, Enjoy!

New to ME!

Well fellow bloggers the CL bug has hit again! I sort of addicted to chairs, and keep looking for the perfect pair. Now they don't have to be new or in perfect condition, since I can probably get them refurbished and reupholstered. So I was on CL a few weeks ago and found a post for a pair of dark wood french chairs for 15 bux! I felt there could have been a typo or maybe she was a fraud, so I emailed. The next day I went on the journey to pick them up. I guess the poor woman didn't know where she lived, because when I finally arrived at her home, it wasn't in the city, which she told me on the phone. The chairs need some elbow grease and definitely new material, but for 15 dollars what do you expect!

Sunday, April 26, 2009

Carters Dinosaur Room, ROAR!

I recently decided to change my growing 3 year old's "Nursery" painted toddler bedroom, and give him a big boy bedroom with his choice of theme. He, after many days of going back and forth from Star Wars, to Batman, he finally decided on a Dinosaur Inspired room.

I've included a couple of pictures of his new room, please keep in mind that I have not had a chance to complete my check list, like the mural, drapes or the hanging of various items. I chose earthy tones with a bright orange for a little kick. I am really happy with the way it turned out.

Attached to Carters big boy room is his own bathroom, so Ive also included a picture of him brushing his teeth!!!